Quick update on the John situation:
After I told him that he was in a rather stunned silence for at least a half hour, cleaning his room and keeping to himself while I sat in here doing work on his bed. I think he was in moderate shock that he had done something that seemed to hurt me so much without meaning to or realizing he had. When he was finally able to muster up any words he came over and cuddled up to me apologizing. He said, "I know this is probably the worst time to say it and you may think I am only because I'm in 'trouble,' but I do think you are very pretty." It was rather cute how he said it, like a scared, hurt child. While I wish he would say it more often, it was very nice to hear for the first time in months, literally. We talked more and got it all out of our systems and I think we are feeling alot better.
In our time together, that was the closest we have come to an actual fight and I think it shook both of us for that reason. I've been in relationships where it was our "thing" to fight and it worked for us, but with John, that seems like total silliness and the idea of having a real fight with him makes me sick. We are very "right" for each other, as stupid as that sounds, and a quote I found on the internet (I know) fits us well: "I don't know what souls are made of, but I'm certain that yours and mine are made of the same thing."
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Yay. Glad things are all better. I was worried for a bit. I totally understand the not really fighting thing too. Matt and I argue very very occasionally but for the most part we just can't bring ourselves to be that angry toward each other before we start working on a solution. It sounds like things are good, and I am really happy that you have that. You deserve that and more. Love you lots!